November 18, 2017, 12:28 pm
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Grief on hold

My friend’s husband died late last year. So close to Christmas. Somehow I heard the news too late. When I asked about the details of the wake, I was told that my friend’s husband was cremated already. 

This kind of grief must be a different one. I cannot imagine how it feels to lose a loved one so close to a season of laughter and gift-giving, of joy and merriment, warm homecomings and nostalgic celebrations. 

I guess it’s like being stranded in the middle of a party that’s oblivious of your presence. You might be dancing but you’re really marooned  in a corner, not wanting to talk to anyone, much less celebrate. 

Christmas – no matter how superfluous our joy may be, and no matter whose company we spend it with – will always be a time for putting sadness on hold. Of putting grief on hold. If ever that’s at all possible. 

I tried writing about this during Christmas but I could not finish it. I guess it’s because it was so unnatural to write about grief and death during a time of merriment. When celebrations are simultaneously happening. And people are in a dither about which party to go to, what to wear, what presents to buy, what special dishes to cook. Death just doesn’t fit in. And yet, death happens all the time. But we never get used to it. 

My friend whose husband died wasn’t really close to me, but had always been kind to me. She belonged to a big family that was overrun with girls. All of them beautiful, bright, cheerful, prone to laughter and famous for dashing up and down the long flights of stairs in school, for whatever reason. I guess my friend, without meaning to, sort of adopted me as an extra sister since I was an only child who was prone to surliness. She always managed to make me snap out of it. 

She helped me find a date for our junior prom by volunteering her older brother. I quickly said yes because I didn’t want to be caught dead inviting this boy I really liked. You see, I didn’t want him to know that I liked him. 

My blind date, my friend’s older brother, was the perfect gentleman. He was intelligent, gracious, an interesting conversationalist. As it turned out, both of us didn’t like to dance. So we just talked. We took turns talking about the people we liked but didn’t want to let on that we did. We understood each other so well. 

By the end of the evening, I had convinced him to tell the girl he liked that he really liked her. But he wasn’t able to convince me to do the same thing with the boy I liked. Thank goodness. Because the following year, I met the boy I was going to marry. And he was my date at our senior prom and graduation ball. 

My friend, who lent me her brother as a blind date, made my prom a non-traumatic one. I will be forever  grateful to her for that. Because of her, I had no “prom date horror stories” to tell. To this day, I don’t know what brilliant maneuver she made to convince her older brother to go on a blind date with me. 

It’s difficult to think of a friend, one you’re especially fond of, going through a time of grief. The shared sorrow is, of course, not to be compared in its manner and intensity. But it’s a shared sorrow just the same. There are no words to describe it because it’s largely impalpable. Except maybe to say that it’s a certain sadness and helplessness that gets deeper as you think of how fine a friend it is who’s now in grief. And how you wish you could do something about it. But you can’t. 

There’s very little we can do, really, to alleviate sorrow. Except to try and be a comforting presence. And pray that the grief and pain will be subsumed in peace and comfort, somehow. 

Life is unpredictable. Its variables are constantly changing. The good things we absentmindedly enjoy can disappear in a split-second. And when even one good thing is gone, be it big or small, its loss brings sadness or grief, and we are oftentimes surprised by it. 

It could be a favorite restaurant that suddenly closed. Or a best friend who found a new best friend. Or one’s trusted dentist of twenty-five years suddenly dying of an aneurysm. Or a friend’s daughter brutally murdered. A wife leaving her husband for another man. A pet that dies of old age. All these things can suddenly come upon us, engulfing us like raging, unstoppable tidal waves that don’t give any warnings.

And we’re left with a life that still resembles the old one – but is vastly different in many, many places are now raw, overwhelming, unrecognizable. So strange. Yet vaguely familiar. 

I think any kind of loss brings us a life that’s strange but vaguely familiar. Yes. Grief happens all the time. But we just never get used to it.
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